The Grammy winner mentioned she would need “to flee being in my very own pores and skin.”
Shania Twain is recalling the alleged abuse she endured by the hands of her stepfather.
Whereas showing on “TODAY” on Thursday, the singer claimed her stepfather, Jerry Twain, would “fondle” her as younger lady, and shared how her troublesome childhood affected her.
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Shania Twain Says She’d ‘Flatten Her Boobs’ to Escape Stepfather’s Abuse
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“It is kind of a double-edged sword as a result of there’s parts of that, of going by means of all these difficulties that make you stronger,” Twain, 58, advised Hoda Kotb. “, what you survive makes you stronger.”
“However alternatively, you additionally develop insecurities, insecurities like, ‘If I do not care for myself no person will,’ you’ll be able to’t actually depend on anybody else, and you’re feeling extra alone on the planet. There’s an anxiousness that comes with that, a vulnerability,” she continued, admitting that she “very not often mirror[s]” on her previous, and tries to maintain it “behind” her.
Twain went on so as to add, “I used to be abused once I was a child. My [step]father would fondle me up on the highest and make me go with no shirt, and I used to be already maturing.”
The Grammy winner mentioned she would need “to flee being in my very own pores and skin.”
Nonetheless, Twain shared that posing nude for the duvet of her tune “Waking Up Dreaming” — which is the primary single off of her upcoming album, “Queen of Me” — made her really feel empowered and assured regardless of her insecurities and previous trauma.
“I am simply on this mode now the place I am like, ‘No, no, no,'” she advised Kotb. “I am comfortable in my very own pores and skin. It is the one pores and skin I’ve so I haven’t got a selection in any other case I will hate myself for the remainder of my life.”
“It is time to begin loving myself in my very own pores and skin and actually embracing that and never being embarrassed of it or shy of it,” she added. That is who I’m.”
The nation star — who’s one among 5 siblings — grew up in Ontario, Canada, along with her mom Sharon and stepfather.
Whereas talking with The Sunday Instances final month, Twain opened up about being allegedly bodily and sexually abused by her stepfather, sharing that she would attempt to “flatten her boobs” rising as much as keep away from him.
“I hid myself and I might flatten my boobs,” she mentioned. “I might put on bras that have been too small for me, and I would put on two, play it down till there was nothing lady about me. Make it simpler to go unnoticed. As a result of, oh my gosh, it was horrible — you did not wish to be a lady in my home.”
The “Man! I Really feel Like a Lady” singer advised the Instances she would battle again towards her stepfather, claiming that she as soon as used a chair throughout an altercation.
“I feel numerous that was anger, not braveness. And it took a very long time to handle that anger. You do not wish to be anyone that assaults me on the road,” Twain mentioned, “as a result of I’ll f—ing rip your head off if I get the possibility.”
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Twain additionally spoke in regards to the measures she took to cover her determine.
“I might put on bras that have been too small for me, and I would put on two, play it down till there was nothing lady about me,” she mentioned. “Make it simpler to go unnoticed.”
And the transition into maturity was additional difficult: “However you then go into society and also you’re a lady and also you’re getting the conventional different disagreeable stuff too, and that reinforces it. So you then suppose, ‘Oh, I assume it is simply s—ty to be a lady. Oh, it is so s—ty to have boobs.’ I used to be ashamed of being a lady.”
Twain’s stepfather and mom have been killed in a automobile accident when she was 22.
For anybody affected by abuse and needing assist, name the Nationwide Home Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233, or for those who’re unable to talk safely, you’ll be able to log onto thehotline.org or textual content LOVEIS to 22522.
The Nationwide Sexual Assault Phone Hotline — 800.656.HOPE (4673) — supplies free, 24/7 assist for these in want.